Hello, my name is Daniel, and I would like to tell
you about my first experience with the recreational drug Marijuana. I’m now
writing this after having smoked Marijuana about six times, spaced over three
or four weeks. I wanted to talk about the first experience in particular
because of it’s effects on me, and how it changed my views on reality and this
experience we go through known as life. As well as perhaps a reference for the
Marijuana experience.
First, let me tell you a little about myself, where I am, and the settings I was in, and general settings I’m in now, so let me just give you a little summery. I’m fifteen years of age (nearly sixteen), and live here, where I attend school (my first Marijuana experience was during the summer, no school). I’ve meditated on and off throughout my life, and have studied Philosophy, Computer Sciences (Game Design, Programming, Web Design, Hardware, so on), Physics, and other topics that have sparked my interest. My sister teaches English, and my brother works various jobs, and aspires to be a Biochemical Engineer. He’s ten years older than I, and the one who exposed me to Marijuana. My Grandmother’s house, where my experience took place, is only a short walking distance away. My brother has a room upstairs where we partake of the drug.
First, let me tell you a little about myself, where I am, and the settings I was in, and general settings I’m in now, so let me just give you a little summery. I’m fifteen years of age (nearly sixteen), and live here, where I attend school (my first Marijuana experience was during the summer, no school). I’ve meditated on and off throughout my life, and have studied Philosophy, Computer Sciences (Game Design, Programming, Web Design, Hardware, so on), Physics, and other topics that have sparked my interest. My sister teaches English, and my brother works various jobs, and aspires to be a Biochemical Engineer. He’s ten years older than I, and the one who exposed me to Marijuana. My Grandmother’s house, where my experience took place, is only a short walking distance away. My brother has a room upstairs where we partake of the drug.
My
brother Gabe is a very nice, clean cut guy, a typical college kid, and probably
one of the best people I’ve ever had the fortune to know. He’s been through
quite a few dramatic situations, leaving him to be the person he is today. He
uses logic for everything he does, from deciding a major for college, to what
kind of television show he wants to watch when relaxing, to pissing the right
way, and while nobody is perfect, he certainly tries his best. An open mind and
logic probably describes him well, even if I disagree with some of his
assumptions and opinions.
Now that
I’ve given you a little information of my surroundings, let’s get to the actual
experience.
It was
late one day when I decided I’d go up to my Grandmother’s house to hang out
with my brother upstairs in his room for awhile. I crept my way up the carpeted
stairs on my bare feet, opened the door, and turned to my right into his
door-less room which had the scent of incense. He was listening to music quite
loudly on his computer as he browsed the Internet, two speakers with a
subwoofer for thump and for quality pounded my ears. He turned it down slightly,
turned his rolling computer chair to me and we spoke for awhile, talking of
current events, things happening to us as of late, the usual bullshit you
encounter when talking to a friend or brother or whomever. Our conversations
are a little more ‘dark’, though. We talk of organized religion at times,
politics, science, interesting stuff, not usually ‘he said that she said that
he said’ bullshit.
He told
me he was going to ‘poke some smot’, and pulled out his bong from behind the
computer. He smoked Marijuana quite often (well, once every couple days, if he
had some), and every couple times I was up there he would have some Cannabis to
enjoy, he’d smoke it, and I never participated. We joked about how he’d get me
high, and for a first-timer, we’d use ice in the bong to cool it off. Gabe
decided that he’d do that anyway, went to the bathroom, dumped the water out of
his Styrofoam cup, and put the ice in the bong. I made a remark which I don’t
recall, sparked his thinking that I wanted to try it, and asked me if I wanted
to. For the first time since I saw him and other relatives I knew smoke years
ago, I gave an answer to that question I never have before. I said yes.
The
second I did, I knew I was going to be experiencing something amazing, and my
Adrenal Glands did, too. My heart pumped, and my fingers shook. He put the bong
on the computer table and loaded a full bowl into it. He put the lighter to it,
flicked it on, and the embers from the Marijuana burned. He sucked into the
bong as it filled with smoke, pulled out the bowl, and inhaled the smoke that
gathered in the bowl. To a first-timer who’d never seen this in detail, this
contraption looked scary. I got the basic principle behind it, though. He
handed me the bong.
I put the
lighter up to the bowl, tried to light it, and didn’t hit the bowl. My fingers
were shaking to damn badly! He laughed and said “You want me to light it?”
embarrassed, I nodded for him to. I put my lips inside the main tube, and
pressed hard so the tube secured around my mouth, he fired up the lighter, put
it into the Marijuana, and told me to suck in. I sucked in, smoke filled the
chamber, he told me quickly to pull out the bowl and suck in. I pulled it out,
and sucked in with the rest of the lung power I had left. I had made it through
the worst part.
The smoke
filled my lungs, and it felt great, the familiar oxygen gas that normally
filled my lungs was replaced by a thicker batter, swirling around inside my
lungs. I let the smoke go from my nostrils and partly my mouth. My brother
worked on his second hit at the time this was going on. A feeling of pride
overcame me. I’ve seen people cough when smoking, I didn’t cough at all, it
felt fine. All the others are pussies I thought.
He handed
me the bong again, and said “hold it in after inhaling this time, better
effect”. I took his advice. He told me it was already going, so I put it to my
mouth, sucked in, the chamber filled with smoke, I pulled out the bowl, and
sucked in again. The smoke filled my lungs.
I held it
for the longest time (long for me), it was a big hit. I felt a burning
sensation in my lungs, forcing me to exhale, along with a hardy cough lasting
several times. “Damn it” I thought, “I’m not a badass after all, now I know why
people cough.”
Gabe
finished his hit, and handed it to me again. Still with some burning in my
lungs from the second hit, I decided I’d do it again. Put my mouth to the bong,
took the hit, held it, and blew out. Even more violent coughing this time.
Gabe took
a hit, and signaled the bong to me for another hit, and I declined with “na,
I’m good”. He smiled, turned his head away from me put his hand to his mouth
like he was whispering something to someone, and whispered “pussy”, still
smiling. I put my hand up to my mouth in the same gesture, and said “fuck that
guy”. He laughed, as did I.
It’d been
about two and a half minutes since we first hit the bong, perhaps a little
longer. I asked him how long it would take for me to feel the effects, he
replied “it should take about five minutes or so for you to start feeling it”,
and with that continued browsing the Internet. I sat on his bed, occasionally
getting up and walking around looking at his room to kill time. Another minute
passed, then another. That’s when it hit me like a bullet.
My
vision, it was my vision first. I’d move my eyes, look around at different
places, the wall, the bed, Gabe looking at his computer, didn’t matter what I
looked at. Every time I’d move my eyes, it lagged. Like watching frames of a
movie slowly, like flipping through a slideshow. This was amazing, my vision
had changed, and my brain was interpreting movement of my eyes differently. I’d
look at the dresser, or the cushy chair, regardless, it looked amazing. I also
felt as if I was out of my body looking at these things, still in my body, but
with such emphasis on my vision, the other senses didn’t seem as strong, giving
the feeling of being out of my body. Not literally, but you get the picture.
Things warped and changed dimension. That’s when the most amazing, and, for
lack of a better word, holy experience I’ve ever felt happened.
I started
feeling like I was being tickled very lightly all over my body. From head to
tow, a tingling. This evolved from the slight tingling to slight pressure. It
felt as if thousands of fingers were pushing on every fabric of my body. Arms,
head, stomach, and the lower extremities (legs…yes, I speak of legs). This felt
amazing, so amazing I couldn’t help but giggle. Minor giggling, not just out of
the blue, but meaningful giggling from the feeling of tiny fingers poking me
over my body. But even that didn’t last long. It evolved once more.
Now
electricity flowed through me. It was slow at first, still slight fingers poking,
then more and more, it felt like electricity running through my body in rings.
And I don’t mean zapping every part of me at the same time. It started at my
stomach, and rings of current zipped outward through my arms, legs, and so on,
in sync with each other. Slowly, zap, a ring of current ran down my arms legs,
et cetera, zap, another one, and then faster, and faster, rings of current ran
down my extremities as fast as you can blink, until it became one continuous
current zapping my body. I could even hear it!
I had to
sit down, so I went to the bed for a nice sit. This was too much to bear, I
broke out laughing hysterically, and nearly choking at times I’d laugh so hard.
I really have to give my regards to this part of the experience, it was such an
amazing feeling that I have tried, and probably failed, to accurately describe
in words, if I believed in God, this would be like him making your body his
house.
My
brother was smiling, I couldn’t tell if it was from the weed, or from him
seeing his little brother stoned. I’m assuming a bit of both. He smiled a big
wide smile and said, “If you think this is funny, wait until you hear this!” He
turned on some Bill Hicks, which I could barely hear from the electricity
sounds I heard as the current charged me while I laughed. Bill ranted and raved
as the crowd laughed and cheered, and I didn’t care. I could barely hear it
anyway. Maybe Gabe thought I was laughing even harder when he turned Bill on,
or maybe he knew I didn’t hear it at all from being so stoned. Whatever he
thought, I didn’t hear it, and I was too busy with the electricity tickling me.
After
awhile, I’m guessing five minutes, maybe ten, it subsided a little bit. I felt
around with my hands, the motion was delayed! It was more ‘choppy’ than
delayed. Like watching a strobe light, you see someone walking, instead of a
stream of movement, you see them in one place, then two feet further, then two
feet further. Like that, it was delayed slightly, and felt ‘choppy’ as I
described, as well as blocky. It was a very amazing thing to feel, and being
so, I couldn’t stop moving around to feel the motion. I’d slide out of my new
cushy fold-up chair on the floor, and feel the odd motion, and do it again
while rubbing my hands on my pants, or doing the hand washing motions.
Gabe
decided we should so something, and we agreed on a movie. The conversation we
had was interesting, instead of remembering it fully it echoed in my head, and
distorted itself, sometimes forgetting what I said, but never what he said. It
was time we went down stairs. So we went down the carpeted stairs, delayed
chunky motion making it feel amazing, and I plopped on the couch. He put in
Underworld Two, a movie we rented earlier, and we started watching it on his
home entertainment center.
The sound
was amazing, it felt like it had depth, that it was there in the room with me,
surrounding me, and was real. Granted, surround sound never sounds crappy, but
this experience made it that much better. I was so busy with the delayed motion,
electricity, echoing sounds in my head from us talking, or sitting a glass down
or whatever, and stop motion vision made me very unable to focus on the movie,
I couldn’t have cared less about it, I was having ‘fun’ in this experience, far
too much to care about a movie. But for the sake of experimentation, I decided
to see if I could focus on it, and I could, with added intensity, too. I felt
like I was there in the movie, getting thrown around by the Werewolves without
the harmful pain associated with it.
I also
found out I could ‘come down’ from the high, and return to the ‘normal’ world
at any time. But I decided not to, to experience the amazing things I was at
the time. I closed my eyes, laid back on my couch, and snoozed for a moment,
thinking. Shapes and images were very clear and easy to see in my mind at this
point.
The
shapes and images I experienced weren't unlike what you'd see at night when you
look into the darkness and see a neon lights, same idea here, but very vivid
and crisp. These shapes were actually 'there', it wasn't just me reflecting
upon them and imagining what they'd look like, it was as if they were floating
under my eyelids.
I have
studied Sacred Geometry, and being so, many of the memories of such shapes
appeared, as well as geometrical patterns I've never encountered before.
Imagining things took much less effort, as detail seemed to fill in naturally,
and any images I might remember, something I stared at and kept in my mind
through my life, so on, were very vivid. In typical memories (at least for me),
images are fuzzy, and missing detail, shirts will only have color, no words or
details unless I remember the specific details of the occasion. But in this
experience, it was more like seeing the actual thing, whether I actually
remembered the detail, or it was just my mind 'filling' it in, the detail was
there.
I swished
my head back and fourth on a pillow on the couch, and with the motion delay, it
felt like wet sand rubbing against my head, with crashing wave sounds. After
focusing, I could feel I was just slowly moving my head back and fourth, and
the crunching sound of my hair against the pillow case was causing the sound
effects. I easily went into the sand and wave swishing again, and stayed there
for awhile. The motion made me feel as if I were ‘waking up’, from this
reality, and entering a new one, like I was sleeping in this dream, and was
waking up from it into the world, and Marijuana was the key to doing it. Have
you ever been in a dream and could feel yourself moving in the real world in
your bed? It was like that, but waking from the reality we’re in here and now
to a new one. I contemplated a great many things during this time and easily
so, being that time seemed to slow down. No matter what I did, everything moved
slowly.
I decided
since I was so weary at the time that I’d go home. I said my goodbyes to Gabe,
put my broken sandals on, and started the journey home. To tell you the truth,
the idea of walking home in the dark in a somewhat woody area was much scarier
than actually doing it. I was wondering if being stoned would make me
hallucinate, it didn’t. The shadows seemed to flow more wildly, and it felt
very mystical, but nothing more. The entire three-hundred foot journey wasn’t
anything special.
I went
inside, shut the door, and walked to my room without a seconds notice. It was
late, I was tired, and even though I wanted to stay up, I decided not to, sleep
was more important. And I’d probably be able to experience this amazing
occurrence again. So I fell asleep with this knowledge. I fell asleep
surprisingly easy, perhaps from being so relaxed. Getting poked by millions of
fingers simultaneously can do that to you. My dreams were very vivid and wild
compared to the normal. And were for days after that.
I woke up
the next morning, and felt a little unfocused throughout the day, kind of the
after effects of smoking Marijuana I assume. It wasn’t something I could
pinpoint, it was something very faint, but I was still a little fuzzy from the
previous night. I did my stuff, the day passed like any other, I went to bed
again. When I woke up the next day I felt refreshed and completely back down to
the normal.
New
things happen every time I smoke Marijuana, and the stronger the dose, the more
interesting it is. On the highest dose I took, everything turned into 2D
objects. People turned into puppets, everything else props with strings
attached. I might perhaps write about them sometime. But for now, this is the
report of my first experience on Marijuana. I hope I’ve given you an idea of my
amazing experience, and even though words are more inert than actually
experiencing it for yourself, I hope I’ve conveyed the bulk of what happened
for you.
All in
all, this was an amazing experience for me, and something I think everyone
should try at least once. It’s changed the way I look at things forever, and
shows that your perception isn’t the only way to see through the looking glass.
I hope I’ve given you some information, or perhaps just a good time with this
story of my first experience. But anyway, thanks for reading, and may your
experiences in life be as incredible as mine have been.
credit:
yuwanknow
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